I am not concerned with sex right now and I have no pain, except I have depression from my Peyronie's disease.
It seems I have only two problems. 1) a failure in the integrity of the wall of my penis on the left side. This is at a specific point rather than so much at a curve, even though that is there also when it is more erect. My penis doubles over to the left because of the failure in the shaft wall when not erect. 2) When erect my penis wants to hug the trunk of my body towards the left side.
Would you like me to send you pictures?
There is no need to send me our Peyronie's pictures at this time. It might be useful later, but now.
It is very common for men with Peyronie's disease to feel depressed for a variety of reasons. For many men this depression arises from the (false) idea there is little you can do to help yourself with your Peyronie's disease and that your life will never be the same. I suggest you begin spending more time reading and studying the PDI website to overcome this feeling of helplessness that seems to come from the idea that no drug has been found to help PD. You need to know that the body reverses and corrects PD in a fair number of cases, and for this reason your energy should be focused on increasing and supporting your natural ability to overcome your PD. Once you understand there is a lot you can do to increase your odds for self-repair and learn more about Peyronie's disease you will feel less scared and depressed. Once you begin to actually do something to improve your physical condition you will feel empowered and in control of you situation.
There is a great technique I use to help men with their depression, called EFT. Please go to the PDI website to the page about using EFT for distressing emotional states. I have worked with many PD men using this technique and the results are often rapid and gratifying. Contact me directly for an EFT session when you are ready to feel better.
What you describe as a failure of the integrity of the wall of the wall of the penis on your left side is not at all uncommon for men with PD. This is commonly called a ding, dent,, hinge or pivot. It can be caused in one of two ways, or a combination of both. The first is by the abnormal internal tissue tension or pulling from within the shaft by the fibrous PD scar located in the tunica albuginea. The second is by leaky veins within the shaft that do not close completely because the presence of the PD scar. You can think of the PD scar acting almost like someone putting his foot in the doorway and preventing door from closing. In PD the scar prevents the veins from closing, thus no pressure is built up within the shaft. Without trapping of blood in the shaft the needed hydraulic pressure never develops to create a completely strong erection. This can happen in just one small area of the shaft that creates the small dent in the side of the penis.
Your left leaning erection is probably related to both the scar and weak erection on the left side of the shaft.
There is not any need to send pictures at this time, since PD treatment is not based on the distortion or curve of the shaft. Treatment is guided by the size, shape, density and surface features of the PD scars that create the distortion. You must develop an exact knowledge of these characteristics in order to help your PD. Once you reduce your scars, you will improve the distortion pattern that bothers you so much. This physical improvement will greatly help your sense of depression.
So, I suggest you get busy. Please get started with a reasonable Peyronies treatment plan that you can find on the PDI website. If you need help with this, please let me know. TRH